Sunday, 06 May 2012
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Currently
In the Aeroplane over the Sea
By Neutral Milk Hotel
see relatedlots of things on my mind lots of things I'm worried about.
I'm always a worried mess worried about everything from school to boys to future careers
to what i want to do, what I'm meant to do and what i need to do.
life can be so discouraging... and it has been
going through things in my life that all happened at once, i feel like i lost everything.
and today i talked to my uncle.
the best thing I ever did!
he gives the best advice! ( its a little scrambled and its rambled and jumbled with a lot of other ramblings ) but when you hear something you get it.
and i got it!
so much stuff that was on my mind has been just been flying like birds of my shoulders.
and i finally get it! im in control of my life!
the universe will figure out where things go from here and i just got to do what i do best!
keep it cool.
THIS IS IT GUYS!
are lifes right now every single second is golden! we are young and we are driven and we are fighting and every momment we are alive
every breath of air we take is gold and savored and when we exhale we give it away and make room for no life
we are becoming who we are and we are doing it RIGHT!
and I'm ready to stop being sad and have the time of my life!
Saturday, 05 May 2012
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I really shouldn't post things at 2 in the morning anymore
when I get tired I forget how to spell/ talk!
and Im much to lazy to make my blog exciting or add pictures or anything by that point
and going over my last couple of posts I realize how truly boring my web blog is.
so thank you to all the people who do view it and a BIG thank you to all of my friends!
:D
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Your heart might change
but its ok.
things will be ok you just dont know it yet
life is in and out with a bang and lives a long shine
never grow up.
just grow full
and when you get so full you cant possibley hold more
spill it out bleed everywhere
dont worry about staining the floor
because when you are all bled out and ready to begin a new
someone will see your blood and remeber you.
so dont ever be anything but you,
and dont ever fight for anything that isnt worth your time
enjoy your life awake
dont waste it sleeping it away
time is a tickin' so you better get moveing
save room for the things you dont know
dont fill up on the things you dont need to know
remeber every heart
you have ever touched
is helping you fill up
remebre when you look at who comes after you
YOur looking little you in the eye.
Friday, 27 April 2012
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Thanking my friends.
Its a simple post I guess.. and a random time for it.
I have a lot to be grateful for, but when your going through a hard time
I guess its hard to remeber how lucky you really are
I think me and maybe a lot of people for that matter have a
hard time being happy because when your sad you
recognize that right away.
anger and depression are a lot louder and a lot more uncomfortable then being happy.
and as a consequence they are probably talked about more frequently, as is the case with me.
I have not had a great time this year and especially not these last couple of months.
but I have had a lot of help.
I have amazingly wonderful friends that help me everyday and are always there when i need them
and always know when not to intrude when i just need to sit and think. I am one of the luckiest
people on earth and i think this all the time. to have the friends i have.
Not many people get to know what a true friend is, friends come and go and you grow
up and move on, but my friends have always been my friends and always will be.
and i do not thank them enough for all the things they do for me.
my family as well.
so this post is for them.
I really wouldnt be able to do the things i do with out you guys
and i wouldn't have the courage do the things i love without you.
even though we may not see each other as much as we used to
are friendship is the same.
maybe even stronger then it ever was.
its hard to put into writing exactly how grateful I am
and i might just sound like everything everyone says about there friends
but as simple as it is know it comes from the very deepest part of my heart.
Saturday, 21 April 2012
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The dead feel nothing at all
did you hear it when they fell
from the sky?
the boom that cracked the peoples faces
and let the Oceans dry up and refill with their tearsthe angels are asked if it hurts to fall
from heaven from space?
throwing up in a toilet bowl the feathers and wings are goneNothings ever hurt so bad
never felt this much painwings and patterns dissolve in the silvers of the rain
I can hear myself in their words
I can see myself in his scarstaste the blood in my mouth
feel dead.
but the dead feel nothing at all.Screaming Save me, reaching up from the Ocean
spitting bubbles, rolling veins,
Shooting into the sky
nothing felt so Free
nothing felt so CleanSee the Sun see the stars
I can hear myself in your screamsTaste Victory
feel the Fall
the dead feel nothing at all.Angels asked if it hurts to fall
I just want to fly on wings
Angels asked if it hurts to fall
Wings that just want to fly Home
He hides himself in his scars
waits for bells to ringwaits to fall and knows when he is dead he will feel nothing at all
angels is asked if it hurts to fall
I'm walking upside down
Only if you hit the ground.nothing felt so clean
nothing felt so free
and the dead feel nothing at all.
